Really are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? Are you sitting up there laughing? Do you have a plan for me? Was this your plan? All along this was it? Did you really think I could handle all this?

I’m tired. I’m tired of fighting you. I’m tired of fighting him. I’m tired of fighting them. I’m tired.

Do I get to have peace? Do I get to have joy? Do I get to have love? Am I able to have peace? Am I able to have joy? Am I able to have love? Am I able? Do I have what it takes?

I’m trying but it feels like all I am doing is digging a hole that is collapsing in on to me. I’m tired all I want to do is sleep for the rest of life. Wake me when life is worth living again. I need a miracle…

I need you to love me

Why, why are you still here with me
Didn't you see what I've done
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve you

But I need you to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from you this time
And I'll stop the pretending that I can
Some how deserve what I already have
I need you to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing you away from me
I just never saw how you could cherish me
'Cause you're a God who has all things
And still you want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

And I need you to love me
I need you to love me
I'll stop this pretending that I can
Some how deserve what I already have
some how deserve what I already have
I need you to love me
I need you to love
me