Really are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? Are you sitting up there laughing? Do you have a plan for me? Was this your plan? All along this was it? Did you really think I could handle all this?

I’m tired. I’m tired of fighting you. I’m tired of fighting him. I’m tired of fighting them. I’m tired.

Do I get to have peace? Do I get to have joy? Do I get to have love? Am I able to have peace? Am I able to have joy? Am I able to have love? Am I able? Do I have what it takes?

I’m trying but it feels like all I am doing is digging a hole that is collapsing in on to me. I’m tired all I want to do is sleep for the rest of life. Wake me when life is worth living again. I need a miracle…